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| "Love'll have you nervous, doing stupid shit on purpose
Brain out of service, words slurred when you blurt shit
Studderin, utterin non-sensical shit in your verses
Feeling like a shirtless, 4 breasted woman in a circus
Furtherly trying to gap an unfillable void
Because of parents never transfering that unbillical joy
So girls create a false world of feeling on boys
Exploited, guys playing with her heart like her feelings are toys
But when you have it.. there's nothing like it, you get excited
Seeking those who provide it, on phones talking to psychics
Some fear it... spend their entire lives trying to fight it
Living in a confusing Hayes, like they're grooving to Isaac
It ain't the end of the rainbow with a treasure chest and a map
It ain't easily learnable with definitions in tact
It can ride your train of thought and demolitions get tracks
Hittin' and bullwhippin you, leavin' them slits in your back
But i've been a lucky one.. loving parents, loving friends
But I still spend alot of my life loving sin
But I ain't a genius on it, I can only pretend
Cause over all it's an emotion I can not comprehend, it's...love"
Niggas, niggas, niggas. What is crackin. Yeah I have a bad ass habit of not writing for a long time but uh. seems like some people are kinda reading this, which means i can't say whatever I feel ahahah. That's my fault tho. I was gonna write a whole blog about my amazing tech n9ne concert experience but got hella lazy. So yeah lets just say it was creamier than a pot of new england clam chowder. Yummmz. But uh Summer has been goodishh. I'd be letting my emotions get the best of me but I've had fun this week. i finally saw my nigger and it was the best thing ever. YAY. It is true i'm just making it harder on myself when he goes back fer good and then i have to get over him. Blah gehness on a stick. I have to much bad shit going on in my head all i think about in the end are just the negative senarios. I hate it because I always seem to think those things are very much possible. And then i've been having a couple lo's from music in the park all on my crack. I hate to be mean but to me its kinda like ... blech. I can't even be in another relationship this fast. I know once he's back down there he'll jump into skank whores right afucking way like whitney houston walking into a room with 50 nugs of crack on a table.. I can't do it =[[. First of all robert is 19 and I witnessed him hit on two chicks right after me ahah so hilarious. the other one seems cool and had a past of a whore of a fiancee. But nahh...and the 20 year olds??? Already had the worst time with one of those. Why can't chino be the one hitting on me??? Ahah JK JK. O.o.. but yeah this week at downtown was fun yet again. Me jackie, tavio, bernie and steven.Mission was first accomplished by getting the ciggs since this homeless couple bought them for meh. Ha his girlfriend had jungle pits, but fuck it they dont have razors. We went to say whats crackin to some of the lo's who were there last week. So I got my face painted by chino and parick as J and watched the most BADASS squirell ever ahaha. There was a box with crumbs of cake in it and the squirell managed to get it and climb up to the tree all fast and ninja like. but he kept on dropping it and coming back down for it. Ahah the weird look i got from old ladies and such were funny. We were walking all over downtown to fucking find chicagos pizza and finally found it. Aha I felt all bumlike cuz jackie, bernie and steven have jobs and fucking CREDIT cards. WTF. Theyre all paying 20 or 40 and shit. I NEED A JOB! HA If i had one i'd prolly spoil my baby alot with new random shit ha. But i cant =[[. So they ended up giving the waitress a 2 dollar tip and i was like "aw she was nice" Then remembered how little cheese she sprinkled on there and was like "FUCKING CUNT DIDNT PUT ENOUGH CHEESE!!" Bernie almost got ran over 3875957 times cuz she did noting but jaywalk. And when steven would start running with us it was HILARIOUS ahah "stevens running holy shit!" he was all breaking a sweat aha. The lightrail was taking FOREVERRRR cuz i had to be home at 10 and it was 9:55. This one white kid got jumped by 6 black dudes, including the guy who beat up sari, and then ran afterwards ahah. How hardcore do yo think that makes you look x]] When I got home I felt all weird cuz I didn't know if andre was trying to see me tonight. I think he called I didnt know the number, I figured he woulda called back if it was him i dunno. blah that woulda been nice tho.O wells. Theres just something about downtown thats hella fun. like running around on a big ass playground. Speacially at night. Ah And i finally finished summer school today. I flunked all classes but get a 97% in summer school. Easy peezy lemon squeezy. But um iono whatelse to say..... Mesa tired and bored So BLAHH PEASHHHH | | |
| Previously.... When we last left off Jasmine was having problems getting over her last breakup..which seems pretty fucking stupid now. She got with this black dude andre but her feelings for him weren't very strong at the time.She was being a bitch to andre and went after pussy while being with him. They broke up and jasmine was last heard being eyed by this fat chick jessica with enormous boobs. She was completely clueless as what to do with her love life. Did that lazy bitch finally get her grades up? What has happened? Is she still single? did she get any puss afterall? Find out by just reading the rest, you fucking retard.
Whats crackin niggas! ahah that was my stupid little intro..i dunno ahah. Well i have truly been lazy and haven't written an entry for four months. So this is my little summary and whatnot...ima try not to make it an hour long and shit ahahah. So after the breakup with andre i saw that girl a couple times but wasn't really feeling it. For some reason I still missed that fag sari. It blew over though, aha yesh it did. After a week being broken up being with andre I had slight feelings of how i wished i was with him again, a big part of me kinda wanted to rape him at random times ahah. So during winter break he started texting me again with his "sweet talk". Aha At first I kinda told him that i wanted him as a booty call but it progressed into much more. Ha we didnt even have sex even though it was planned xD. I remember the day we got back together was when we both snuck out to see each other at midnight, and lucas was there xD. That was a pretty fun christmas break. Getting shitfaced at the x-mas eve party and throwing up on the side of the house due to cigarette smoke being inhaled weird/ juggalo kareokee, Having andre and lucas being caught in my room at 4 in the morning. So january was a pretty shkill month. February had to be the month where I got into the MOST trouble iv'e ever been in. Ugh Not a good month. The only perfect thing that happened during that month was Valentines. PERFECT FUCKING DAY/NIGHT. Aha so my mom had tim watch me for valentines since mi parents were going outta town for the night and tim didn't wanna disobey anything that my parents said. So he was like "I cant have ppl there..just andre for a couple hours..and no fucking." Ahaha but itturned out he had work till seven which meant he didnt care what I did till then. It was great there was like 15 ppl who showed up. Andre, octavio, jackie, bernie, rosie, virgil, mitch, hans, steffie, nick, flappy, gabe, clowny, brenda and this one dude who left right after smoking. We hot boxed my room, ahah it was so crammed on my bed. Then fucking virgil got the mic working and juggao kareokee was in session...until he blew it out while screaming "WE DON"T DIE!!!!" Ahahah. And the brownie fight I kept on having with rosie was pretty fun too ahah. Jackie and octavio ended up having a little quickie in my parents bed and everyone left at like 7:30 except andre and octavio. Octavio wasn't supposed to be there but we ended up having him hide in my room all night long ahah. So the three of us had 2 packs of ciggs which we smoked in my room since the Parentals werent there to bitch. We played guitar hero then octvio ended up being the dj to me and andre's fucking. Ha he was just sitting there passing us ciggs during, pretty awesome xD. But other than that night i started cutting alot and got caught having ppl over while i was supposed to be sick. Ugh That got me into alotta trouble. And my grades NEVER got better they got worse and worse until i had five F's. it's still like that. But things with andre started getting more serious and whatnot as more time went by. That negro was starting to be the only thing on my mind 24/7. Don;t judge me IM IN FUCKING LOVE, BITCH! Ahah but things got more better in march as my birthday was coming up. Alotta excitement amungst everyone, and it was the shit. Blah I just wish I got drunk and actually stayed ahah, fucking cuntzilla wanted me home by 8. We had it by a creek and we had a hundred bucks worth of booze and a shitload of weed. So I guess after that it was just normal shit. hmm the month of April..... I was turning into a bigger pothead then i was before because i was getting used to getting high every day or so. I also found out i was going to my first tech n9ne concert which is so fucking orgasmic I CANT WAIT!!! Eleven more days!!!!! ahaha. My second 4/20 was the shit, so much better then last years. I also ended up getting drunk as hell too xD Then later on everyone ended up coming to my house to smoke a blunt =]]. Ah And spring break was also fun fer me. it involved sneaking andre in my room half of the time, I ended up buying like 100 bucks worth of weed for the whole week, saw observed and report, being at the mall all day meeting new fam. Ha so yeah I knw i left a shitload out but Its a summary. i'll try to not wait four fucking months ike ast time. Well peace bitches, i'm out. | | |
| Well ello peoples xD heres another weekend update and whatnot. Friday I was planning on having people over, since the parentals were going to be out for the night. At first the original plan was "octavio and jackie fuck in my parents bed, me and angel and nick and steffie wherever they can find." None of that happened at all. Steffie said angel was down to fuck if she was drunk but I didn't end up getting any puss. But anyway Jackie, andre and octavio were waiting at the park since six and my parents were taking extremely long to get ready. Then andre called and was all like "Were you fucking angel tonight, jazzy? because I wouldn't of came you can have your little fuckfest. Do you just wanna breakp and have nothing to do with me?" "sure" I said with no emotion. Ahaha. Well i have andre outta my fucking hair, yay. xD. At first I thought i was liking him but when it happened i was just liek "Ok i don't like him like that at all" All I could think of is sari. Sari sari sari, why can't I just forget about that fucking adorable ass sand nigger!!! I want to but i just can't! I realize that my feelings were more strong for him than i even knew because not a day goes by where i think about memories and shit. it sucks and i feel like a fool since he has no feelings for me like that anymore and I'm over here missing the shit out of him =[[ Plus he's not even here anymore and We don't even talk at all, and the least i want to do is have one conversation with him at least. i wonder how long this is goign to last >.< ANY FUCKING way.. Parents finally leave at 7 and jackie andre and octavio get here after whining to me how they are tired of waiting. Octavio looks pissed because of some circumsized joke that andre made xD Then I guess they had to jet at 8 30 and it was already 7 30. Virgil, nick, mitch and hans gave me a call saying they were coming and hans sounded so drunk xD he was just yelling the whole time LMAO. So andre, me and jackie were sitting in my livingroom and andre pissed me off big time. "Well jazzy...I saw TECH N9NE!!!" Everyone stopped and things were quiet. A yell from octavio cam from the kitch "Prepare to get your ass kicked andre!" NOONE brags to me about tthat! =[[ If i were to only see one concert in my whole life and that was it you bet your ass it would have been that one. I gave him the death stare and said "your lucky i'm not stabbing you" "he took out a knife out it in my hand and said"I SAW TECH N9nE!!" I pushed that nigger on the chair and chocked him as hard as i could and pressed the knife against his ribs. Told him not to do that shit. I et him go the he kept fucking with me. "I get to see potluck tomorrow!" Round 2. I pushed him against the chair again and punched him in the stomach like a fucking psycho! And i know he's gonna brag tomorrow...i'm so gonna kill him. Anyway they left. Hans fucking ran into my house DRUNK. You could tell. Virgil, and mitch walked in later 'like jasmine your booty call's coming xD" Then fucking hans was jumping around liek "MARGARTAS MARGARITAS!!" I busted out the blender and made some damn margaritas since they kept on whiniingn about it xD Nick steffie and a very drunk angel walking in. I knew that I wasn't going to get some from her. She was way too shy and kinda out of it..she wasn''t feeling it at all xD. Drunk like that from one shot of jager haha. but yeah so nick and steffie were trying to help me out with angel but i knew nothing was going to happen. Mitch was no help at all he was like "You should text hans phone that you wanna fuck her and show her." LMAO I could of just told her instead xD. And He was mouthing real big "RUB HER TITTIES!" Ahaha. So time went by and mitch hans and virgil left. Stephanie kept on saying "you cockblocked me, virgil!" We all stopped and laughed "How does that feel stephanie??? Huh?!" haha So they left and those 2 drunk bitches were left here without A ride home. I ooked around the kitchen and it was messy as fuck! Hans dropped eggs on my floor and virgil and mitch nearly burnt the house down making eggs xD So I mopped and cleaned like a nut and just downed 4 beers to stop me from stressing. i planned on hiding them in my room for the rest of the night. So the weirdest fucking thing happened. Steffanie all of a sudden wanted to fuck me and she kept on calling nick to ask him if it was ok xD. She started making out with me and i was drunk as fuck too so i guess just went with it. Ay yi yi Nothing else happened tho, thank god ahah. She didn't wanna do that to nick anyway so yeahh. Plus poor angel walked outta the door when it started but she came back since she didnt know the way home haha xD So at 1 30 they came home and i was all liek "GET THE FUCK UNDER THE BED!!" Haha they we suspicious since all the pie was gone xd but they didnt find out about the 2 drunk bitches in my room at all xD So we just hid out in there and they finally got a ride from my sister at 4ish. Next day I was texting this girl jessica who I haven't talked to in like 3 years. She was coming on to me a bit and she lived next to me in the mobil home park where jackie lives. So i walked over there and we watched queen of the damned..it was pretty quiet and kinda awkward ahah. But her boobies were like size F ahaha They wre just out there liek whoa. then at the end I got kissed and then i had ta bounce xD Ahahah. Then today I taped mi family make 36 dozen fucking tamales O.O Then i found out I might be a godmother since SOMEONE fucked without a condom and ended up busting a nut inside of her. Ay yi yi. sooo lucky if she doesn't get preggers. Well im'a wrap this up. Later fuckers. | | |
| What's skizzlin? Saturday was pretty interesting. Some parts sucked ass but at least i wasn't bored and alone. (mostly.) The parents went out for the weekend so you know I had something planned since it's so fucking rare. Then a lil before they're about to leave my mom starts saying shit like " You better not go out or have people over!" then my sister say something about how she's going out and my parents get their panties all in a bunch. They start pissing me the fuck off saying how they can't trust me and someone has to be home to watch me, like I'm fucking 6 years old. It went from a discussion to insulting and screaming. I DON'T like being called a fucking failure! That shit just makes things worse fer me then everybody starts crying and whatnot and the topic of how poorly i'm doing in school is mentioned like 7676586 times. They somewhat make it worse for me, so Syn is my main inspiration to get my shit together. I can't break that promise to him, specially him. So i'm pretty much pissed and depressed like my whole day is ruined. Also for some retarded reason i thought my sister was serious when she said "if she does any retarded shit like have people over, I'll tell you." Prolly cuz she told me it's not the end of the world when i said "so much for a piece of ass." When the parentals left I was eating my delicious nachos all angry and such and my sister said " you know you can have people over, right? I used to be a fucking salesman!" that lightened up my mood up 7858764658 notches. steffie called from nicks house and said her, Nick and Mitchell were on their way. Rob said he was gonna drop by but he was a no show =[[ The fucked up thing is that I called and told Octavio earlier that morning and i thought i would of spreaded to a couple more people. So he doesn't call back all day and i figure " oh well." So he cALLs me when it's too late and says "Why didn't you tell me?" he thought it was steffie calling him since she did the 3 way thing. oh wells. So yeah the three of them showed up and me and mitch we like "nah were cool". It was weird seeing nick and seffie make out since i've never seen it let alone nick with a girl at all xD. So me and mitch call over hans and when he gets here we start calling everybody to hook us up with some ganja. Mitch finally finds someone but he has to go to anderson, so i give him a scooter thats half as tall xD Nick and stefffie are in the room finger fucking and what not while me and hans watch cat house and other HBO "porn". mitch walks in 30 minutes lter tired as fuck and we watch him roll teh blunt. Then elijah calls hans and we tell him he can smoke with us if he buys us 2 pizzas xD. So we wanna watch my dvd of porn i have so I walk in my room and steffie and nick both have their shirts off aha xD Note that there are several first things I have seen that night. Not too mention stephanie flashing me her tits while i was just sitting in the room. 1. Nick with a girl. 2 Nicks shirt off 3 steffies tits 4.Her ass since nick was pantsing her so much...so far xD Elijah gets here with thee food and we finally light up that blunt. I swear to god every time mitch comes to my house with we smoke his blunts i get higher then usual xD That was a amazing blunt. So i go inside and sit next to steffie and nick and were both just laughing at him. He knows i laugh way too much when i'm high so he fucks with me to where it's not even cool ahah xD Theres porn on the tv but its frozen to where he's tittie fucking her so he's just like "Jazzy, imagine this, imagine if his dick all of a sudden out of nowhere, stabbed her in her tits and blood started squirting everywhere and the plastic in her boobs just popped and stabbed in in his dick" and just rambling bullshit. I was done i just starting pissing nonstop and by the time i an to the bathroom my pants were soaked to the fucking knee xD And what made it worse is right when i was running to get in there i could here hans screaming at my dog "STOP STARING AT ME!" and i pissed more xD So were all shkillin in the kitchen watching the porn and nick puts on techno on the little speaker system hooked up to the laptop, and it was hilarious because it went with it ahah xD Elijah leaves so me hans and mitch are watching the porn like its the fucking superbowl all cheering and laughing and whatnot xD Then all of a sudden hans goes in my room then runs out saying "OH SHIT! I SHOULD'NT HAVE OPENED THAT DOOR, BRO!" Aha therefor hans new catch phrase haha. "I just totally walked in on them fucking,bro!! SHOULDN'T HAVE OPENED THAT DOOR,BRO." Lmao. So mitch and hans leave and I'm alone..with them fuxking or whatever in my room. oh gosh. I walk in there but they weren't doing shit..fucking hans xD Well anyways I just walk out and pass out on the couch all lonley and shit. I hate the fact that I'm bringing this up in every blog but I MISS THE SAND NIGGER!!! ahah bullshit like seeing them kiss and all that lovey dovey bullshit makes me sick and all sad. BLAh ahah. So I wake up at like 3;30 and my sister tim, and this chick sarah storm in the house drunk as fuck. I open my eyes and they're liek "AH SHE"S STONED!!!" i was just burnt out ehe. Then i have that chick sarah in y face all loud "HOW COULD YA BE SO DOCTOR EVIL?!" then steffanie run up to me 'We just fucked!" Ahah what a bunch of shit to wake up to xD My sister starts Djing til 6 in the morning and steffanie gets easily shitfaced xD Two more new things 5.See nick take a puff on a cigg 6. See him chug a beer. Ha so we sleep at 7ish and wake up at 11. They leave and me and erica clean up for that dyke fest football party thing xD WEll yeah mesa done. Peash | | |
| Ello ello xDNothing special just updating this yeast infection of a blog. Well it seems like i'm slacking off more than ever and junior year is a pretty bad time to be doing that =/. I just procrastinate way too fucking much and by the time it's 11 i'm too tired to do any homework. I pretty much sleep all day after after school so yeah, fucking bum. Not too proud even tho i try to be aha. Fuck i definitely don't think im going to get enough credits at at this rate. I need a major fucking wake up call, or mabye i just don't care. Right now i obviously don't care about doing well in school, but it will bite me in the ass later. My biggest fear right now is my future, and it should be. I'm way too immature for my age >.<. this shit needs to change, but what's stopping me?? Blah.. Then i'm smoking a half a pack a day which isn't too healthy for me =/. Yeah it's rare that i get my own pack but when i do they're gone like THAT. If i don't have at least 3 a day im unsatisfied..fuck i'm addicted. Seems like a got alot to complain about ahaha xD Then theres the whole being single and missing the fuck outta sari thing and andre getting at me all of a sudden. It confuses the fuck outta me. I said it was a horrible idea to get with him but somehow he keeps pulling me in a little day by day. Mabye i should just stay away, even tho he's saying all these incredibly sweet things to me ahah, my weakness xD. So it's somewhat stressing me out cuz i don't know what the fuck to do. Shit i'm not even over sari yet (which takes time cuz that's just how i work.) Part of me thinks he's just bullshitting, if he was to ever fuck me over tavio would hae my back since he told andre to cut that cheating shit out if anything was to ever happen. And yeah he was like "jazzy i would never cheat on a down ass bitch like you! THE REST WERE WHORES!!" Iono yeah i've cheated a few times..the whole virgil/lafonda double thing was unintended and i was bound to break up with the nigger eventually. And i just wanted pussy so thats why i did he whole matty/lafonda thing..not like i fucking got anything outta her! =/. ahah Whatever..i need time!! ahah let jazzy BREATHE!! let me kick back on my ciggs and figure shit out..let me get my school work together..blah. Something fresh was that i got my gift thing from syn. he said it was gonna be aletdown!! DUDE! I got a sick ass detroit tigers jacket, A FUCKING DILDO so i could finally dickslap people with, a jack with Mudface, Vitiligo, and feature presentation on It! not to mention pinapple express and stepbrothers. how is that a letdown syn? Your the best! Those 3 cd's i listened to today were great. loved it all. Well ima wrap up so g'night x]] | | |
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